by Caitlin Lushington | Dec 13, 2021 | Uncategorized
I’m sitting in the blackbox of Studio C. The light from the large corner window is rapidly fading, and one of my classmates is reaching the end of their Pedagogies assessment, a 20-minute class taught to our own cohort. I’m bone-tired. Weary. I’ve got that tingly...
by Caitlin Lushington | Nov 22, 2021 | Uncategorized
I’m making dinner. I don’t normally like cooking because it stresses me out. So many options – what spices go with what? What tastes good with what? I have no idea. I let my partner do the cooking. But we’ve got a student discount on HelloFresh so for the last...
by Caitlin Lushington | Nov 7, 2021 | Uncategorized
I think that my actor training trained me to be a Perfectionist. Well, I think my actor training amplified my Shame. And I think that amplification birthed a shining Perfectionist. Gear up, there’s gonna be a lot of Brené Brown references in here. ~~~~~~ I’m sitting...
by Caitlin Lushington | Oct 24, 2021 | Uncategorized
The morning after my second panic attack — during which I could not mindfully breathe through the emotions, but needed to step out as the wave took me over and resulted in me crying in front of the course leader — I was lighter than air. I woke up early. I wrote “You...
by Caitlin Lushington | Oct 17, 2021 | Uncategorized
“I also love Blanket Forts because they create a physical boundary for my self-care time, because no one wants to fuck with the adult woman hanging out in a fort. Thank you.” Light applause, and then… “You have more time,” comes the voice from the back of the room....
by Caitlin Lushington | Oct 10, 2021 | Uncategorized
It’s the second day of classes at The Royal Central School of Speech & Drama. I’m in graduate school. I’m a candidate for the MFA in Actor Training & Coaching. In London. England. My husband and cat are waiting for me at home, the sun is out, my classmates...
