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Does my jealousy make me a monster?
or: Squash, Beans, and Corn: Destabilizing the myth of individualism for actors (4 minute read) “The beauty of the partnership is that each plant does what it does in order to increase its own growth. But as it happens, when the individuals flourish, so does the...
Queering Perfectionism
Part of my perfectionism manifests as People-Pleasing: habitually ignoring or bending my needs in order to fulfill the needs of others. This has become problematic for me in that over time my sense of self-worth has become attached to how well I’m fulfilling the needs...
If my Self-Trust was a Dungeons & Dragons character
i want to share with you everything i know and everything i am learning about my self-trust, which of course, will be different than yours, but perhaps some of my experience will resonate with yours. I’m gonna use a bit of Dungeons & Dragons to help tell these...
living in london
london is walking feet on pavement muscles toned, habits forming. anything needed? my feet get me there, my feet and my breath, breathing in on a count of five, exhaling on a count of six. the sky the sky is shaped by brick and planted trees it catches you when you...
My Self-Compassion Practice Won’t Look Like Yours
It’s a long Sunday. What I mean by that is it’s a day where you cancelled everything in order to slow down and pay attention. Breathe. Feel. And in that, it’s like you can feel the stretch of the day, marking the time moving. Maybe I’ve actually slowed down enough to...
new year, same you, same wall of sand
cheers to you and this new year we share, my friend. oh i see you’ve pulled your hat around your ears and a groan is surfacing from the very depths of your soul yeah, me too hope is fucking hard right now, eh? yeah, this is hard this is hard. its ok that the new year...
A Bit About Me
Hi, I’m Caitlin, pronouns she/her and they/them. I’m a teacher and an artist, gathering wisdom on how we can build nourishing, sustainable creative lives in the midst of a white supremecist capitalist patriarchy.
I’m a white, queer, American theatre educator and practitioner, as well as the co-founder and Artistic Managing Director of Enso Theatre Ensemble based out of Portland, Oregon. I’ve taught, directed, and performed with a variety of companies in the U.S., including the Utah Shakespeare Festival, the Ashland New Plays Festival, Third Rail Mentorship Company, and Enso Theatre Ensemble.
I'm back in the U.S. after completing my MFA in Actor Training and Coaching at The Royal Central School of Speech and Drama in London. While there, I researched socio-cultural contributors to student burnout in actor training, focusing on scarcity mindset and the Human Giver Syndrome framework, as articulated by Kate Manne and Emily and Amelia Nagoski. I argued for the integration of a 'love ethic' in higher education actor training as one possible response to the pervasiveness of student burnout. I also taught devising and resiliency skills to B.A. acting students as part of a class called 'Performing the Self' at Rose Bruford College.
My work intentionally straddles the boundary between creativity as an art form, and creativity as a therapeutic practice. Supporting my ability to traverse this boundary with care and responsibility is my 10+ year mindfulness practice. This includes years of self-study, as well as a 6-month yoga teacher training at Yoga Refuge, and the Mindfulness for Youth-Serving Professionals course with Peace in Schools. I also hold a certificate in Mental Health First Aid.
Outside the theatre, I'm an avid lover of table-top role-playing games like Dungeons and Dragons, tea drinking, ritual, and history, and enjoy long walks through the forests of the Pacific Northwest.
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I work and live on the unceded lands of the Clackamas people, the Confederated Tribes of Siletz Indians, the Confederated Tribes of Grand Ronde, and the Cayuse, Umatilla, and Walla Walla people, known by its colonial name of Portland, OR.
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Rest & Love in Creative Living
Let's chat! In this email "newsletter," I respond to your questions on finding sustainability and creative fulfillment in our wild and challenging industry. I'll also send along stories, musings, and other bits of inspiration. Submit your questions to caitlinlushington@gmail.com.